Pivot / why single #3 is not what I thought

I had a plan this year and the plan was to learn and grow from my experiences. Sure, it’s something that happens naturally in life, but I wanted to accelerate the process, really pay attention to how I can better my understanding of life and various processes.

So after it took so long to get ‘You’re a Better Friend’ released after ‘Walk Over My Friends’, I realised that I needed to be working on songs far, far in advance. So as I was gearing up to release ‘You’re a Better Friend’ I was already making sure the follow-up would be practically ready the day the last single dropped. Honestly, I was feeling pretty good about the whole thing. I did my usual, which was do all the work I felt I could do on it before passing it off to a co-producer*

*because I never felt like I was a good enough producer and didn’t have the sauce to finish a song - more on this in a later blog post

Then, on the night I was releasing ‘You’re a Better Friend’ I played both the new single, and something else. The planned single was good, don’t get me wrong, but this something else was … something else. The room just sort of stood still as soon as I finished it. You could’ve heard a pin drop. I heard someone say “holy $%&@”. There were tears. And that’s when I knew it happened. A voice in my head said “you know this is a better song, and you know if you don’t put this one out you’ll regret it forever”.

So despite the fact that it wasn’t recorded at all, that I doubted my capacity as a producer to pull it off, I knew that to make it in time I had to just dive into the discomfort and make it happen. The best part of it all, though, was knowing that because the song held so much power in such a simple form, I didn’t have to do much to it at all to get it ready to show you.

One of my favourite quotes starts with “make ye a mighty effort” and that’s exactly what I’m gonna do. I know that on the other side of doubt and fear is a version of me who’s going to look back, take my hand, welcome me, and share a view with me that I’ve never seen before. Follow the journey on my socials.